After a weekend of eating chocolates, I should be thinking about healthier treats, but when prompted with “apricots”, my mind leapt to jelly and then to doughnuts, or donuts if you prefer that spelling. I actually ate a doughnut this morning, felt a bit guilty, and then quickly course-corrected and had a kale smoothie for lunch. This was supposed to be the week I began to focus on lowering my calorie intake so I can drop a few pounds. It’s not that I’m posing for a centerfold anytime soon, it’s just that I want my clothes to fit a bit better. Heading into warmer seasons when more flesh gets exposed is always a bit of a motivator. I see those people with perfect bodies and often envy them, until I realize they’ve made maintaining that body their hobby. I’d really rather paint. Turning myself into a work of art has never appealed to me. Especially, if it means never being able to enjoy that occasional jelly doughnut.
This all made me think about priorities and how I’ve put sketching and painting at the top of the list. Sure, if I invested the same time in working out, I would definitely have one of those specimen bodies. But then I’d have to pose for that centerfold, because how else could I share my art? And I’m rather camera-shy, so that’s probably not the path for me. I prefer sharing my inner self rather than my outer self. Bits of my heart and soul, found in these little posts and in my doodlewashes. I hope that people can relate to the “stuff” I sketch and ramble on about, and that it makes them think of their own stories. This is what drives my passion. I love being the guy hiding in the background, but not in the creepy way that just sounded. What I mean to say is that I love setting the stage and then hoping others will create the show with me. Like when I was a kid, recruiting all of my friends to put on a play in my backyard.
I think that life becomes the richest in the moments when we’re doing what we love. The rest is just filler. Those things that are personally wonderful to us, even if others might choose something else entirely. As a kid this concept made complete sense to me. Sure, I didn’t have to pay a mortgage and do all that other “adult stuff” that can take a lot of time. But, I had homework to complete and lots of chores to do before I got to go outside and play. The thing that made it all worth it was that there was always a sweet reward at the end. These days, I often have to remind myself that things aren’t really any different. Just because I’ve gotten older and a bit more sensible doesn’t mean I have to stop getting rewards for completing my “necessary” tasks. Whether it’s having that little time to paint, or going ahead and allowing myself a wonderful little taste of apricot jelly doughnuts.
About the Doodlewash
Sennelier L’Aquarelle: Red Orange, Turquoise Green, Phthalocyanine Blue, Sennlier Red, Quinacridone Gold, Burnt Sienna and Payne’s Grey. Lamy Safari Al-Star Fountain Pen – Extra Fine, with Platinum Carbon black ink in an A6 Hahnemühle Watercolor Book.