Wow. I’m so sorry to hear about your situation. It’s really hard to eat healthy. Even if you grew all your food, drank from own well, and raised your own animals you’d still get toxins from what’s in the air and the ground.
I do think it’s wonderful that you’ve maintained a good attitude. It can’t be easy but it’s probably more important than the medicines! I’ve been lucky in my own health (knock on wood), but my mother has Crohn’s and I’ve had to nurse her through several episodes. I know I had to fight to maintain a good attitude and I wasn’t even the one who was sick. I can’t imagine how frustrating it must be.