As we near the weekend, I’m finding myself with a bit less energy, so it was nice to dive into a prompt like “reflective” for today’s post. This is some sort of spritz that I didn’t actually have, as my glass like this one was filled with wine instead. My mind has been buzzing with things that I need to do this week. Sort of like a constant low hum of energy that both propels me and exhausts me at the same time. So, it was nice to get a bit lost in the thousands of reflection that appear on a glass of something. I didn’t capture them all, of course, but I hope I got the idea of them across. I love painting glass because watercolor seems perfectly suited for the occasion. Using transparent paints only seems to make sense when painting something like this. I’m sure it would look particularly amazing given time for layers to dry properly and bit more attention to detail, but even in my quick and sketchy style it still manages to create a glassy effect.
At the moment, I’m sitting here listen to the Paris Combo and relaxing. It’s quite lovely, and seriously, if you’ve not listened to them before, I highly recommend it! They never seem to be in Paris at precisely the same time that we are, but maybe one day we’ll be able to enjoy a live show. And their music is a perfect complement at this very moment. One of the things I’ve been reflecting about is this blog and where it might go next. I’ve lots of ideas, as I typically do, and if any of them actually manage to jump out of my dream and into reality, then there may be some changes ahead. I sometimes lay awake in the middle of night, dreaming up new ideas. I know I should be sleeping, but my mind doesn’t shut off sometimes. In my half-asleep state I’ll trot through grand scenarios of things I’d like do next. I love these moments. They’re the kind when anything is possible and everything seems plausible. Sure, come morning, I’m left wondering how the hell that could ever happen, but in that moment, it already is. That magical moment when dreams come true.
One of the things that makes me pause is a fear of messing something up. That I’ll make a horrible mistake and should just leave well enough alone. But if I did that, then none of those amazing dreams would ever have a chance of seeing the light of day. They’d be lost in those twilight hours, drifting through thoughts and never actually coming into reality. So, sometimes, I push myself a bit further and force myself to just go for it already. What’s the worst that could happen if I do it? Wait… that’s not really the question. What’s the worst that could happen if I don’t do it? I’d never know what was possible. I’d then lay awake wondering what could have happened next. That won’t do at all. No, far better to risk it and move ahead into the unknown. Only then will it ever become the known. And finally, those dreams that I only wondered about, might just be the ones that actually come true. That’s a wonderful feeling indeed. Perhaps, after all, it’s not such a bad thing to be lost in reflection.
About the Doodlewash
M. Graham Watercolors: Pyroll Red, Azo Yellow, Azo Orange, Burnt Sienna, and Ultramarine Blue. Lamy Safari Al-Star Fountain Pen – Extra Fine, with Platinum Carbon black ink in an A6 Hahnemühle Watercolor Book.