When thinking of a prompt of “someone you love” there were, of course, many people in my life that came to mind. But, there’s certainly one person that rushes to the top of the list and that’s my husband, Philippe. Though I did attempt a quick initial sketch of him, my ability to achieve a good likeness is still quite horrific. It looked nothing like him, and what’s worse, didn’t even make me think of him when I looked at it, so it failed on all levels. Had I proceeded, it would have had the less romantic effect of looking like I was cheating on him with a much less attractive stranger. So, I opted for wedding bands instead. In the end, I also prefer sketching “stuff” because it’s more universal and relatable. Unless, of course, that odd little man I sketched looked like someone you knew. But that’s not likely to be very many of you out there, thankfully. Love, however, is something quite universal, and something in everyone’s life. And even if you choose to not get married, it’s the best feeling in the world to choose to be with someone and have them make the same choice.
I have to admit that I’m no expert on romantic love and why on earth it even happens in the first place. Even when it’s happened to me throughout my life I’m often left perplexed as to the reason. There’s a spark of some kind and then a connection that you can’t really explain at all. And, depending on the source of that spark, sometimes it’s not even something you can explain to your parents very easily. Though a spark lights a fire, the relationship does often move to a smoldering glow after time. This is simply out of necessity as it would be thoroughly exhausting to maintain over many years. But, even if the fire isn’t blazing as brightly as it was in the beginning, the spark that started it all never really goes away. For me, there’s the sparkle in Philippe’s eyes that always reminds me why I chose him. Why he chose me, is anyone’s guess really. I think I asked him once and he just shrugged and said, “I just knew you were the one.” This doesn’t answer a single question specifically, of course, and is terribly devoid of facts one would expect from a PhD scientist, but I adored that answer. Sometimes in life, you just know what’s meant to happen next, and there’s no other way to explain it.
I think I’m certainly a romantic at heart. I’ve lived my life letting my heart lead the way, often when my mind is nearly screaming for me to reconsider. The way I see it, when you follow your heart, there’s a definite chance you could experience extreme sadness, but it’s equally the only path to infinite joy. So, for me, it’s totally worth the risk. There’s usually always a set of rules out there for whatever you hope to accomplish. One can google them and discover full lists of exactly what you should do next. Though the tips and tricks are awesome, they don’t usually get to the heart of the matter. There’s no one-size-fits-all solution when it comes to life. Each person, completing the exact same steps, will produce a rather different outcome. The difference is that bothersome heart that sneaks in and alters a thing or two along the way. A perfectly unique viewpoint that innocently changes everything. It’s the very thing that makes whatever we create somehow uniquely us and beautiful. Like the strange and impossible to describe viewpoint that made us fall in love with that special person. The only thing I can ever be sure of when my heart takes the lead is that whatever it chose, we’ll always be together, forever.
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Da Vinci Paint Co.: Nickel Azo Yellow, Terra Cotta, and Cobalt Blue. (My “Shiny” Trio! Click Here To Purchase It!). Lamy Al-Star Safari Fountain Pen with black ink in an A5 Hahnemühle Watercolour Book. Photo Reference: Jeff Belmonte from Cuiabá, Brazil. Want to purchase a print of this doodlewash? Send me a note with a link to this post, and I’ll add it to my shop!